I started a band called Purge This City with a group of awesome people, Jake, Matt, Chris, Richard (our original drummer), Tony (the new drummer who came after Richard) and Corbin (a fill in drummer for Tony cause of GM, that is a whole other story). Jake and I hit it off great, we were in English 10 honors because we loved the teacher who taught the class and we sort of became friends through this girl named Tara and through the class just because we were forced to be with each other every day for 180 days during the school year. I play guitar and so does Jake, and we thought it would be cool to jam once and see what each other had. Right off the bat Jake was better then but I didn't care because I was able to learn something from him. So we jammed once and then we wanted to start a band. I knew a kid named Chris, who was my best friend since I was wearing diapers. He and I have always done things together and he has been working on his vocals and he wanted to do vocals for the band, and Jake and I were friends with Richard. This is where Purge This City was born. Matt joined the band after a few times of us all hanging out and getting know each other. By the end of Sophomore year we were all great friends, we hung out all the time and were writing music all the time.
Over the summer we spent every waking moment at Jakes house and were continually practicing and just being bros. Some drama came about with the drummers and that is where tony comes in.
Junior year kicks in and we are all great friends. Things really are taking off for us, we get a show and are writing more and talking about tours and stuff.
Looking back Junior year is where things got a little dicey. I cut people out of my life that were great friends of mine because I was engulfed in the band, and hanging out with the guys in the band. Everything in my life had to do with that band. And come to find out, the way I talked was a way that my friends could mock me. I worked hard to be professional with the band when we were talking to people who could set up shows for us, and when we called venues. I liked to think of myself as the person who sorta held things together in the band. But I think i was wrong.
Fast forward a little while and we are in the summer before our Senior year. Tony has moved away, and we are not getting anything done as a band, we are at a stand still. No ones fault just a rough time. But we were going to record, things were looking up.
Purge This City was on the rise and I thought things were going to go good again. I was stoked.
Then I went on a trip, and had a lot of time to think about things. And I figured out that I could no longer spend all of my waking moments with holding on the thought of Purge getting to the big times, which was my dream for the band, I loved playing but I wanted to make it big.
The day I got back from the trip, I called my fellow band mates and told them that I quit as a guitarist for PTC. Everything seemed alright. Until they completely and utterly stabbed me in the back. The plan was that I was still going to go with them to record and help them hall stuff. But I was lied to and replaced by Corbin (who was kicked out of the band) and Meghan (a friend of all of ours in the band). I was super angry and called them out. But as we all did constantly, they lied to me. Nothing new we all lied to each other all the time I did it, Chris did it, everyone in the band lied to everyone about basically everything.
Needless to say again, but I was very angry. But I tried to make things chill with us all again because, we were best friends and that is what friends do. But come to find out. I was wrong about best friends.
To skip all the details and give a short version. Jake and I got in fight, which meant that we all were fighting. I only had beef with Jake because of out things were handled and we both were childish.
Jake and I have now made up and are friends again. We are going to the same school next year and we maybe living together.
The people I didnt have beef with apparently have had beef with me. Chris and Matt I have done something to wrong them that I dont know what it is, but I would love to know what it was.
Tony and I have totally different beef, and that is an entirely different realm of things.
Chris and I were best friends, and now never talk. We spent weeks together in the summer at music festivals, and we rode bmx together, and he lived next store to me for a summer and we were together all the time. Since we were born we have been friends. But something changed when I quit the band.
Matt and I were great friends when we were in the band together. I thought me and him were very close for people who didn't really know each other at the start of the band.
To wrap up this story, I miss how things used to be, I miss the friendships and I miss the way things were. But I do not miss one bit all the bullshit that happened and that I have been able to get away from. I am happy that every word that I have ever said has been twisted and and formed into a knife that I was able to be stabbed by it over and over because it made me realize how messed up things were between us all.
I miss everyone in that group. But things will never ever be the same.
I don't mean to offend anyone in this post, I had it on my mind and I felt I could write about this, I think things were fair in this blog and I think that you all will agree with me in what I have said. I glorified no one and made it clear that things were messed up but things were fun. It was only towards the end of all of our stories that things got more dicey then normal. You all know who I am talking about and you all know the story. I am sorry if i did offend anyone, and I know i left out a lot but I think that the point was clear.
I miss you all.
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